I long for the love we had from the start
Although ‘twas the kind of love that tore me apart.
I fixed you yet I broke my bones
After the war of love I fought on my own.
I’m thirsty for your love and sincerity.
I’m craving to hear the words, I miss, I need, and I love you, coming from thee.
But there I was on bent knees.
As I watched you slowly take your steps away from me.
But why do I still long for the love we had from the start?
Why do I still wish that you’d come to mend my broken heart?
Why do my eyes still search only for you in this sea full of people?
Up to this day, why are my feelings for you haven’t changed a little?
My yearning heart and broken soul
I was whipped, tripped, ripped, and now I crawl
But I know that one day, the love we had will be longed no more
Like how the waves coming from the sea eventually leave the shore.
CREDITS TO: Antoinette Mandap, Kim Bernardo, Alain Zarate, Karmella Espinoza, Denisse Gonzales, Marvin De Guzman
Photo Credits to: https://www.google.com.ph/imgres?imgurl=https%3A%2F%2Fs-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com%2Foriginals%2Ff8%2Fd5%2F3a%2Ff8d53a56ca550fde8c715d83de609f87.jpg&imgrefurl=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.pinterest.com%2Fpin%2F334884922272664959%2F&docid=I6w8onWL_ZKWFM&tbnid=g_7rN0rUE-Ew_M%3A&vet=10ahUKEwjHn4e69sTUAhXIULwKHU0bC6YQMwi3AShZMFk..i&w=589&h=640&itg=1&noj=1&bih=532&biw=360&q=dark%20blue%20aesthetic&ved=0ahUKEwjHn4e69sTUAhXIULwKHU0bC6YQMwi3AShZMFk&iact=mrc&uact=8
A long lost love
Trying to be found
By yearning hearts and broken souls
I wonder what your eyes behold.
Knowing that there’s an empty space in my heart,
Waiting to live this wonderful life with you for a lifetime
Still stuck in the dark,waiting for someone to light me up
But where can I find this someone? When I through hell and still found no one.
CREDITS TO: Antoinette Mandap, Kim Bernil Bernado, Karmella Espinoza, Kenneth Ruiz, Anna Torio
Photo credits to: https://www.google.com.ph/imgres?imgurl=http%3A%2F%2Fdata.whicdn.com%2Fimages%2F281705394%2Fsuperthumb.jpg&imgrefurl=http%3A%2F%2Fweheartit.com%2Fpizza_yas%2Fcollections%2F121958559-dark-blue-aesthetics&docid=jWYtm1swRge8yM&tbnid=Ae-AZiaRCs6s1M%3A&vet=10ahUKEwjHn4e69sTUAhXIULwKHU0bC6YQMwiWASg4MDg..i&w=300&h=250&noj=1&bih=532&biw=360&q=dark%20blue%20aesthetic&ved=0ahUKEwjHn4e69sTUAhXIULwKHU0bC6YQMwiWASg4MDg&iact=mrc&uact=8
I long for the love we had from the start
Aiming for a second chance that could last
Trying to sense your feeling
Hoping to know what you were thinking.
In this world filled with fools and infidelity
Im longing for your loving heart and sincerity
Still wishing that one day this heart will be filled your love
And up to this day I long for the love we had from the start.
CREDITS TO: Ri-ann Taminaya, Alain Zarate, Kim Bernil Bernardo, and Kayla Esteves
Photo credits :https://www.google.com.ph/search?q=stranded+students+during+rainy+days&prmd=ivn&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjt-YKF6MTUAhVDy7wKHZ5ZCdQQ_AUICSgB&biw=360&bih=532#imgrc=X919OISsBtihkM:
Pashnea umuulan na naman
Nag-iinit ang aking katawan katawan
Kalsada ay tubig ang laman
Mahirap tumawid sa daan
Kaya ko tatawagin ang padyak ni baldo
Siya ang aking sundo
Paalam na po At ako ay magluluto ng Adobo.
That green vastness of the jungle which seems to reach the heavens always reminds me that waves coming from the wide beaches surrounding the City of Dagupan are already miles away, instead, I am already in between the fiery sun and the sea of yellow sand where those sun-scorched wall of mountain ranges await. Passing those gigantic land forms always make me feel as if I am able to touch the clouds when in fact, I couldn’t. After that exhausting trip where in you could really watch both how the sun rises and also witness it as it sets, finally Isabela or the Queen Province of the Philippines welcomes you with its expansive green fields where you can as if hear the green grasses growing.
Before going to Isabela, I already set that I would spend the whole two month vacation to review and prepare for the upcoming entrance examinations. But I never thought that my summer vacation would seem like I was in a roller coaster ride because of the recently held Ms. Teen Palattao 2017 beauty contest. I was clueless back then that I was included as a candidate until a barangay official went to our house telling me that my uncle, who is also a barangay officer, listed my name. At first, I was really hesitant whether to join or not. Since I have an upcoming review yet I also have a contest to prepare for. Thankfully, I was able to manage my schedule well and I could say that after joining the pageant, I didn’t have regrets because it became the highlight of my vacation. That contest taught me a lot of things not only the essence of camaraderie, real beauty, but also how to bond and mingle with other people although it was my first time to be with them. That event made me realize both real friends of mine and those who are not. Friends, who stayed and believed in me from the beginning until the end of that contest, and for those who aren’t that real, it was fine because although they judged me, they just proved that I really did great that moment.
This experience may not be as extravagant as the others but I consider this as the best of my summer 2017 because I was able to be productive at some point rather than just slouching at home. This summer gave me the chance to influence others especially the youths to prove not only to the whole Naguilian that people of Palattao have beauty, brains, and attitude which makes us a united and more progressive barangay.
“As charming and warm as the days Spring and Summer;
Weak yet wild like the afternoon and nights of Fall and Winter.”
Mari Antoinette Mandap. Seventeen years old. A writer. A certified poetess. And just like Neil Gaiman quoted, “I lived in books more than I lived anywhere else.”